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BRIGHT LIGHT

16/01/2021

Dear diary,

Ighiwiyisi Jacobs was the first person to call me, “Bright Light.” She said it in a way that showed that she wasn’t just describing me, she was revealing a new identity. It took me some time to understand that though but when I did, I began to think of it as one of the names I would like to answer to. What I didn’t realise until a few days ago though, was the reality that light is only bright when the environment it’s in is dark.

I had finally launched the 2021 journals I’d created with my team a few days ago. AB sent me a message encouraging me to post it to twitter as well to encourage people to buy so I decided to take that advice. I don’t use twitter anymore – I stopped a while ago because the daily dose of toxicity that abounds there had become too much for my heart to handle & besides that, I don’t think human beings were designed to have access to so many opinions and people at the same time:

I would read things that would leave weights on my heart and sometimes I would withdraw, feeling heavy and weighed down the entire day. This was what happened when I logged into my Twitter account to post the journals I’d designed. I stumbled on more darkness and I couldn’t believe some of the things I was reading, pouring out of people.

“A good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart, and an evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows from what is in your heart.” (Luke 6:45 NLT)

I posted this to my instagram story shortly after

I was so distressed by the tweets I was reading: the anger, constant disagreements, insults, vulgar words, praise for sin, blasphemy against God, pride, ego, ignorance celebrated, gender wars. I could see that not only was darkness increasing, it seemed as if it was winning. I felt helpless because it appeared to me as if no matter what I did, my efforts at soul winning were a single grain of sand compared to the vast rampage of a summer beach that sin and darkness is waging on the earth. I put my head in my hands and whispered to God, “what else can I do? How can I make a difference in this big, wide world? I feel so small.”

My husband saw me in that position and he wasn’t happy because he had mentioned sometime ago that I may be struggling with a God-complex, thinking that I’ve got to save the world. He said to me, “do your part – the small part that God has given to you and be content with it. No matter how much you try, you cannot save the whole world. Pray instead to the Lord to send more labourers and what can we do about this heaviness? Because you cannot be feeling weighed down every time you see how broken human beings are. Was that how Jesus Christ was walking around on the earth feeling weighed down by all the darkness and sin that he was seeing?”

It was a lightbulb moment – how exactly did Jesus Christ deal with all the darkness and sin he encountered daily in people? I mean, He could even read everyone’s thoughts. And as if I’m answer to my thoughts, my husband said, “He (Jesus Christ) simply light every day and it was enough to push the darkness back.”

Yes. But of course. Bright Light. It started to come to me:

Bright Light. You are Bright Light. Push back the darkness every day – not by hiding your gifts or cowering in fake humility because you’re afraid of people accusing you of being too much, but in presenting to the world what has been deposited on the inside of you. You are enough and whatever part you will play in this Kingdom, big or small, it is enough.

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25 thoughts on “BRIGHT LIGHT”

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  2. Having read this I thought it was extremely informative.
    I appreciate you finding the time and energy to put this short article together.
    I once again find myself personally spending way too much
    time both reading and commenting. But so what, it was still worthwhile!

  3. Thank you ma’am ❤ I’m grateful God bless you and strengthen you to keep walking in his will, I pray that he keeps revealing to you his heart cry In Jesus Name Amen 🙏 ❤

  4. Thank you so much Ezinne Zara. You are truly a blessing and I thank God for your husband too. I’ve always had this burden not to download the app and I think this may even be a confirmation. As the word of God says we should lay aside every weight, we also have a part to play by not allowing everything into our hearts..

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  6. I really can’t explain what this did to me. I have wondered this for a long time to the extent I get scared of showing people who I truly am… Some days I don’t even know who is the real me. The world is too dark and some days, I don’t know how to be the light. How can I be that and still be accepted? I didn’t even know I struggled with this or maybe I never wanted to accept that I did. I get scared of showing people that I love God, that I do want to know Him. I always wonder if they would label me as someone who judged people. I’ve been a coward honestly. I’m struggling with this badly. I never even knew till now. Thank You so much ma’am. I guess I know what I’m fighting against now.

  7. Hmmmm!

    Thanks for sharing this.
    Your writings constantly bless me and especially since 2021 started, everything you have been writing has been speaking to me strongly.

    Thanks for shining brightly and encouraging me to also shine!

  8. Wow!!! “Do your part whether big or small and leave the rest to God”👏🏾👏🏾
    Thank you Ezinne for sharing this… I’m quite excited to be honest after reading this post!😁

  9. This is sooo relatable. Was on twitter yesterday and actually couldn’t believe my eyes. Did people actually think like this? And it could be so depressing,that feeling of seeing so much darkness abound,that we start to feel like our light can’t do any good.

    “Jesus was (is) light everyday, and it was enough to push the darkness back”. No matter how dark it gets, light will always win! Thanks for this Ezinne.

  10. I left twitter a few months ago solely because I wanted to focus on my exams, I went back to twitter for a day (Boxing Day) and after literally spending the whole day there I realised I could no longer do it …. rightfully so, it was very distressing, I only fully became a Christian yesterday (before I would say I was Christian but still do things of the world but I decided yesterday to renew my mind and no longer look to things of the world). I know I won’t be going back to twitter for a while as I have seen how peaceful my inner mind is without it. Sometimes I look back and can’t believe that during the lockdown I would spend hours at a stretch arguing with strangers on twitter on how they should basically treat people better …… thank you for this post, it basically helped solidify my decision as to why I don’t need twitter at all not even with a new account

  11. Thank you sooo much for this. It’s because of this heavy feeling I can stay away from social media for up to months just so I can be at peace

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